♥ Me Myself & I ♥

My Story

When I look myself in the mirror,
I see a familiar face..
I know how she looks like..
But I do not know who she is..

I break the mirror,
Hoping that I could see more..
It shattered into pieces..
reflecting hundreds of me..
and I couldn't see anymore,
but to feel the pain inside me..

The best person to tell my problems to...the only person who knows how to give solution to my problems is myself. Telling people about it will not help to solve it. Sometimes it make it worse.. well most of the time it got worse.

*Because, I know..*

People are always comparing..competing every single thing that they have. Waiting for the right moment to show up and show to the world that he is better than everyone else. People who they were called friends like to tell things to another that he is not good enough.

I don't like to compete.. I love being myself and I do not have the vision of being better than the world. I hate it when people rub it to my face and think that they have the rights in the world to say that I do not deserve it because I'm not good enough compare to others.

And there's nothing that I wanna prove to them. It's tiring to compare and compete as if I'll need to keep up to track so that I'll not lose the game. The ONLY person in the world that I wanna prove myself to is MYSELF. I have very low self esteem that I have been struggling for yearss..

I have finally break down the wall or i shall call it the thousands of layer of masks that I've been wearing for ages that says "I'm okay".

I said it all out from the bottom of my heart every last piece of memory that i could search in my brain and every last word that my mind had told me not to say in the 1st place. No, that's not it. There's more.. that i wanna tell..but I am still in a denial.

心门上了锁
我把钥匙淹没
爱情已像无居的沙漠一千里的空一千年的堕落

而你就像海盗
无意间把钥匙夺掉
收藏了
遗忘了
害我找不到
你的解释我不想知道
我害怕被遗忘了的心会再跳

生气只是一种借口
把你从我的心赶走
狠狠的决定不回头
才发现没有你我不能够
只能静静在你身边守候

You are intelligent and you think about life and philosophy and WHY to everything. A lot.

But you are missing passion. You like to do creative things, but they often lack the soul behind it.

You can make people laugh and beat your friends in an IQ test, but when it comes to living life to the fullest you are lost, even though you think you aren't.

You think you are right, but underneath of it all you are confused.

You are only guided by your mind which often leads you astray, but your soul rarely reflects in your life.

You like to work hard for things and you think you deserve them, but you sometimes wonder why you are where you are.

You need direction for your persistent and determined personality, but you aren't sure where to get it.

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come come mali come~

HuMaNsss

St0ries of my past

watch me waste my life away

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